Shafeeq without jealousy is not Shafeeq. Seriously , i dont know why i do have this jealousy feeling. its not those mild ones but its those major ones that really makes me feel so suckish at times uh. When she did something , which my mind thinks that its okay but my heart will be like , " what the hell are you doing ? im your boyfriend , not him. " During secondary school life , i was known for my jealousy. I know how to differentiate whether she is doing the right thing or not but my heart seems not to get it. Sometimes i just feel so pityful with those girls that ive been with especially my current one , which i hope till forever i will be with. Her doings doesnt have those bad intention but sometimes this stubborn heart of mine will fight the thought of my thinking. Im really sorry. Im trying my very best to understand the way you are before you met me. Give me time and soon , that guy to me , will be totally harmless. Im working hard on it. Hope you understand. The purpose of me writing this post is nothing but to let my feelings out. I miss my boys. Sakai , ahleng and rain. This 3 guys , the only one who understands my feeling damn well. I use to let things out to them but nowadays , we are busy with our own life. Hope to meet you assholes one day which i hope its coming soon. To be positive , maybe GOD give me this feeling because GOD wants me to appreciate the people i love and not let them go. But if they wanna leave , by all means , leave.