Have you ever see someone for the first time and then you say something to yourself " This girl is important to me. " have been in that situation ? Yarr , i did. All this happen on a special day i would like to called it , " 15th July ". A sweet study date leads me to love someone just for hours. At first , that girl was not my type. She dyed her hair , wore coloured contact lens and yarr , her dressing sometimes disturbs me too. But i kept telling myself , till when i wanna be this way ? Life has to change , and so i go for her. Shes worth going after for and now , congratulations , we have been 6 months plus together , alhamdulillah. Eversince the special day , we had gone thru the thicks and thins together.

As in my previous relationship with fatima , sometimes it gets tight and lose and sometimes situations are perfect. So getting the experience from what she has thought me over the five years really helps me alot in my relationship with this lady. Thank you fatima :)

Every moment i spent with this lady , i will never forget. She does bring in some new stuff into my life. One of it is , ' Love doesnt need to be serious at all times '. Ive been holding to that eversince. So yuup , we spent most of our times laughing , joking and shares stories bout her bestfriend and me , bout my love of my life , Sally.

But things doesnt go the way i expected. Sometimes i do feel that im being neglected , not being appreciated by her. I even have the feeling that she shares her love for two person. A few months past , something struct into my mind.

In a relationship , i have to trust her , and her too. Never have negative thoughts , but sometimes its okay to have one cause that negative thoughts is what have been leading us till today. I do have isuues with her bestfriend , aiman. Always in my heart , saying im just a visitor came knocking onto someones door , asking for love in a begging manner. Disturb other peoples love life. Im sorry Aiman , i didnt know that sharizan is that important to you and you too sayang. If i noe you guys do have feelings for each other , i wont be interfering into both of your lives. Im sorry.

Im the kind of guy who cant be bother to fight for girls because i noe is not worth a cent although i used to be one , rescuing the love of my life last time , fatima. But as i say , things need to change around here.

Sayang , im really really sorry if i ever had add burden into your life. Never i intended to do so. In this beautiful world , only ALLAH s.w.t and my loving mother knows how much i love you. Even you yourself dhun have any idea how much you mean to me. I would sacrifies anything just to have you , but not fighting for you. Dear , i always wanna see a smile on your face and i will do anthing for it. Trust me. Any place in spore you wanna go , named it , i will learn how to go there and poof , we will be there.

Sayang , you are the love of my life. How am i gonna face reality if you are not here by me ? How am i suppose to continue my life and move on without you ? Honey , i love you so much. Just dhun take advantage on me cause it sucks. Doesnt mean i say it , youve did it before okay ? Its just for to you remember , thats all.

Ive just read your blog , and it tells me that you really miss your bestfriend. Okay , now i understand how it feels when you miss your bestfriend , which im currently feeling right now. Do whats best for you and just a reminder dear , know your limits :)

Till here then. I still have things to be let out but i think , its best not to.

That lady im refering to is ,

Nur Sharizan Binte Selamat.

Bie , love you always :)